http://sites.google.com/site/crumblegame and don't forget his Crumble blog! http://crumblegame.blogspot.com Go cop that!
Zack playing Crumble in Sony Plaza, NYC
For your eyes only! If I wanted people to know about this I'd publish this on Facebook.











Mami Luz aka my Grand Aunt Illuminada is being buried in a big military cemetery today with her husband Papi Joe who was a veteran. She was ninety-four years old. No drinking or drugs. Belief in God and love of her family. Outspoken and active. This is was the road she tread. Truly inspirational. I remember spending time with her in the hospital when you can tell things were serious. I was really there. When my mom was dying I was a mess on many levels. I was sad and upset because I was too greedy to understand that my sadness was all about me and what I wanted. I wanted my mom to stay alive and take care of me, give me security. I have since learned life isn’t about what I want and can get from others. It is about how can I best serve others. In helping others I help myself. I’ve been really working hard to do this especially this past year and I find this practice to be quite spectacular. I’m happier than I have ever been. This is a stark contrast to how miserable I was for a good chunk of my life. I think this mental shift started when I visited my Grandfather, Papa Roro in the hospital. He was a long time meditation practitioner. He was very wise. Through my cousin Ralph who translated he imparted the knowledge he had acquired during his life. Seek a simplified spiritual life.
I don’t know how long I have on this plane of existence and the truth is I can’t take anything with me so how much happiness can I get from all my obsessive creature comforts? How secure can I be really? Personally I feel if I am standing in the past I live in a morass of regret and shame reliving sections of my life desperately wishing I had made different decisions. Eventually I become so filled with disgust I self-destruct. On the flip side of the coin, If I am standing in the future I live in an anxiety-ridden universe of fear where I replay these fantasies of how things should turn out and how I could troubleshoot the situation if certain situations arise. There are so many tangents and alternate realities to keep thinking about my brain overloads and I self-destruct. Focusing on bouncing between these two extremes I failed to realize there was a third option that doesn’t end in me self-destructing. All I’ve got to do is be here now. I can simply exist and handle business, love others and love myself.
LOL! I look at my self now and say this is SO not me. Ah but it is! It is not the angry, jealous, hateful, spiteful, lustful, mendacious me of the past. Not that I don’t have my moments. I’m no monk by any means. I still freak out from time to time but now I just get quiet, don’t front then take action. Note to myself: I have to clean my room but no biggie. I’ll do laundry tonight but I won’t stress that till then.



That furry pink pelt.









There has been a shift in my attitude. I really like myself better. Every day I try to remind myself put the focus on others and away from me. By being constantly mindfull of others I can better "do the right thing". Today I had a real example that I have begun to grow up. When I returned from the graveyard I was sitting at a bus stop and I saw an old ex-girlfreind of mine walk by. My initial instinct was to jump up and say "Hi!" But a lightning fast diagnostic evaluation of the situation reminded me during the span of our relationship I'd done this girl so wrong on so many levels. Saying "Hi!" Forcing an unwelcome, awkward confrontation would be a totally self serving, egotistical move on my part. Once that initial thought passed, I thought what would be best for her? So I prayed for her. I wished her health, happiness, love and a knowledge of self. Making this decision filled me with satisfaction and peace. As Major Garland Briggs said in Twin Peaks: "A job well done is it's own reward." True that. When I got home I picked up a book this ex in question gave me and she inscribed on the title page part of a poem that said "I Don't Know A Thing About Love" Perhaps I'm finally learning a thing about that. If I can paraphrase Depeche Mode for a sec here: If I surrender heart and soul, Sacrifice to a higher goal I'll be moved by a higher love.
Photo: A Yin and Yang on the Dojo Door with double dragons that I like.
Me, Lili and Chess Now producer Lester Vecsey aka The Vex, behind the scenes at Manhattan Neighborhood Network
Lady Ann and her children with me on the set of Checkerboard Kids.
The Metropolitan Museum of Art: Today was the last day of the Gustave Courbet exibit so I went down to go get some culture but I must confess I had ulterior motives! I really went to check out the exibit on Superhero fashions. Well how was it? Fanboyilly speaking it had some cool stuff like Christopher Reeves Superman outfit as well as a faded Lynda Carter, Wonder Woman outfit from 1976. Two spiderman outfits, Iron Man proto type outfit , Batman outfit, Catwoman outfit. Mystique from the X-Men movies and a bunch of corny fashion outfits that were supposedly inspired by superhero looks. as my dear comic coveting homeboy Delmo Walters Jr would would exclaim: TWY AGAIN! Dont even get me started! The coolest thing they had was premire issues encased of course but so close you could drool on it. Action Comics 1, Tales of Suspense ( first Iron man apperance) Marvel Spotlight first appearance of Ghost Rider, and a whole bunch of others! It totally won me over it was totally worth it being in the same room as those books!
Yep I went on a date with a pretty important person that I had been neglecting as of late. Myself! I had been so good lately so I think I really deserved a night out. So after work I went all out. The first day of Iron Man! Woo hoo how fanboy can ye get? So how was it? I'll say this I feel best Comic film since Superman 2, well at least Spiderman 1. Looking Forward to Hulk, Indiana Jones and a couple of others. $11.50 a movie ticket? Better movies better start coming out or the industry is totally screwed. Mark mah words! ' Nuff Said!
Looking up towards the sleeping quarters at Sivananda.
My homegirls checkered socks and laces. What is it about those things? I'm reffering to the checks, silly!
"The future still looks good


He bought me a cool Palomino Super long point pencil sharpener. He actually went online to do research on what pencil sharpener is the best. Now I sit there sharpening and resharpening my pencils. I can’t wait to get my hands on some Photo by Aung@
PS: The Papermate Mirado Black Warrior Pencil also gets a mad shout out too!
I bow to the wisdom of the pencilpages.com.
In case you're curious the Pencil Revolution has begun.



(who really kept reminding me of Socrates Poole (Christian Clemenson) from the 1993 TV show, The Adventures of Brisco County Jr.) In any case he says we are the only current Chess show on TV. If that's the case, Aye Caramba! Bah! mayhaps I'm too close to it since I'm on it. Judge for yourself and don't forget to rate it! What's chess without a rating?

date weighing all the pros and cons for each one. but I'm mad digressing. I want to speak about salad. Violet (Xavier's sister) and I pulled out all the stops on creating the worlds best salad! Rife with cucumber, tomatoes, carrots, a crisp red pepper, spinach and two lettuces (Romaine and Red leaf) we also had kidney (ouch!) beans and brown rice! It is a whole big to do. washing, cutting, drying (caramba, I need a salad spinner!), mixing and especially tossing. we don't willy nilly toss the salad like we would a twenty sider at dungeon crawl or like we'd casually toss smelly old socks into a hamper. When its time to toss the salad we do it with class! We take the salad and shake it firmly it over our heads!
cupcakes from Magnolia Bakery that just opened on 69th St. and Columbus Ave diagonal from Maya Schaper’s Cheese and Antiques (the shop was the location of Meg Ryan's children's book store in the 1998 Tom Hanks date movie "You've Got Mail") You know what? The cupcakes I tasted kicked major butt. I feel bad for all the similarly themed bakeries in the area. You're gonna have to get your player weight up. No, seriously. Magnolia is calling you out and y'all about to get served!